crossed

ah, the perks of working at a Catholic school. yay ash.

teeter-er

i'm a teeter-er.

i constantly teeter between wanting to lay down roots and wanting to explore...

between loving and hating...

between happiness and abysmal sadness...

between wanting it too much and not enough...

between insomnia and deep dreams...

between forgetting she's gone and thinking about her absence with each breath...

between being a kid and a grown-up...

between caring too much and not caring at all...

between strong and weak...

between ying and yang...

i'm a teeter-er, always balancing on a thin line.

i hope it's not always so.

student teaching...

means being parched. constantly.

makes you feel like you're the dumbest person in the world.

reminds you that you know more than you think you do.

means faking it until you make it.

teaches you the magic of hearing someone call you "ms. legel."

is another way of saying "kiss every aspect of your life goodbye."

teaches YOU more than you teach students.

humbles you. daily.

makes you realize that there is textbook knowledge, and then there is reality.

makes you want to cry and smile and scream and rejoice, all at the same time.

makes weekends look like glorious gems from God.

is worth it all.